Thousands of Reservists Face Back Door Draft

MANY RESERVISTS FEELING A ‘DRAFT’

By WILLIAM BUNCH
bunchw@phillynews.com

GENNARO PELLEGRINI JR., a 31-year-old Philadelphia police officer, was playing Sony Playstation video games with a nephew one night last April when a single phone call turned his world upside down.

He was just two weeks away from the end of a six-year hitch in the Pennsylvania National Guard, one of several signs that Pellegrini was hitting a new phase in life.

As he neared his third anniversary as a cop patrolling the streets around Fishtown, he was now also engaged to be married. And a highly successful amateur welterweight boxer, he was also training for his first professional fight at the legendary Blue Horizon arena on North Broad.

That’s when the commander from his National Guard armory called with some stunning news. The Pentagon, invoking the fine print in his enlistment papers, was not only extending his tour for up to 18 months, but was calling him up for active duty.

He was told to begin training to go to Iraq by year’s end.

“I was mad,” Pellegrini said last week, and his anger has only grown over the last six months of training in Texas and Louisiana. He said he’s too out of shape to fight, and his fiancee broke up with him. He called the conflict in Iraq “a so-called war” and sees U.S. troops as caught in an impossible situation.

But like it or not, he left yesterday to begin his service.

Pellegrini is one of several thousands reservists or ex-soldiers who are going to the bloody war in Iraq under what the Pentagon calls “a stop-loss” program – but critics are calling “a back-door draft.”

The Philly cop is hardly alone. Officials estimated that some 40,000 National Guard members have had their tours extended involuntarily, most for hazardous duty in Iraq or Afghanistan.

In recent weeks, the Pentagon has been digging deeper, calling on an additional 4,000 ex-soldiers – many of whom left the military years ago to start jobs or raise families – who are part of a pool called the Individual Ready Reserve, or IRR, to resume active duty because troops are stretched so thin.

The Pentagon moves are legal – some 110,000 former troops agreed to belong to the IRR when they left active duty before their eight-year commitment – and officials say there is considerable precedent. Nearly 15,000 IRR soldiers were called up for the first Persian Gulf War in 1991, although for much less than the one-year commitment sought for the new conflict.

Still, with no end to the insurgency in Iraq in sight, the call-ups are starting to exhibit increasing resistance in ways that – like some other aspects of the fighting in Gulf region – may remind some people of the Vietnam era.

The New York Times reported last week that roughly half of the 4,000 IRR call-ups are trying to avoid their service either through official channels or by simply not showing up.

Among the larger pool of National Guard call-ups – the category that Pellegrini belongs to — there are some looking to win conscientious objector status, and several have gone to court seeking legal protection.

In one Sacramento, Calif., case that’s been receiving publicity, a married father of two serving in the California Army National Guard went to court this month in a last-ditch effort to prevent his deployment to Iraq, supposed to happen this week. His lawyers have argued that President Bush lacks the authority to make these “stop-loss” call-ups, but the unnamed soldier has already lost one round, and legal experts doubt he will succeed.

In the meantime, an ad hoc network of military families and anti-war activists has been working closely with soldiers looking for ways to contest their recent call-ups. Officials here say they’re getting increasing calls for aid as the situation on the ground in Iraq seems to deteriorate.

“We get calls every day from people who are in the military reserves who are getting orders to go and who are saying, ‘This is something that I don’t want to do,’ ” said Bill Galvin, of the Center for Conscience and War, based in Washington, D.C.

Galvin said some of the most dire calls are from reservists who have already served one tour in Iraq and are getting orders to go back. “Some of them have said, ‘I’d go to jail before I’d go back there,’ ” he said. “They say they’ve witnessed things or participated in things that have caused them terrible trouble sleeping at night, and they don’t want to put themselves back in the middle of it.”

Meanwhile, many soldiers who could be called up – and their families – wait and worry that they’ll get a phone call like the one Pellegrini received.

“It’s just like a back-door draft,” said Ben Sears, a just-retired West Philadelphia High history teacher whose 28-year-old son is finishing a five-year Army enlistment in San Antonio. He said that Zachary Sears, a graduate of Philly’s Masterman High and of American University, will be placed on the IRR if he doesn’t re-enlist.

“Last week when he was home, he said he’s not going to Iraq,” Sears said. “He really hates the war – he’s always been against it.”

Most reservists and ex-soldiers are like Pellegrini – willing to obey their orders, but not particularly happy about it. Pellegrini said that he was just two weeks away from completing his National Guard obligation when he was called at his rowhouse in Port Richmond.

Yesterday, Pellegrini was slated to leave for a base in Louisiana, destined for an undisclosed location in Iraq. His unit A Company 1/111 from Northeast Philadelphia is slated to serve a year over there, possibly longer.

In the meantime, Pellegrini’s been watching some news on TV, and he doesn’t like what he sees. “This isn’t a war they’re giving us over there – this is policing stuff,” said Pellegrini, who knows a thing or two about law enforcement.

He also knows something about putting up a fight. With a 17-1 record as an amateur, Pellegrini sent James Andre Harris onto the canvas in the 4th round when he fought this May at the Blue Horizon, his one and only pro bout.

Preparing for Iraq may be tougher than anything he’s encountered in the ring. He said his fiancee left him rather than deal with his long absence, and hours of classroom training have left him in worse – not better – physical condition.

Now, he said, “I just want to get it done, come home, and continue my life.”

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Brutal Reality of War: Dead-Check in Falluja

Embedded with the Marines in Iraq

Dead-Check in Falluja

by Evan Wright, Village Voice
November 24 – 30, 2004

On April 9, 2003, the day the statue of Saddam Hussein was being toppled in Baghdad, symbolizing the promised liberation of Iraq, I was embedded with a Marine unit engaged in fierce combat about 30 miles north of the city, on the outskirts of Baquba. Late that afternoon, the Humvee I was in was following about 50 feet behind a Marine Light Armored Vehicle when it pulled alongside a Toyota pickup pushed to the side of the road, its doors riddled with bullet holes. The head of at least one occupant was visible in the truck, but I couldn’t determine if he was moving or not. Nor did I see any weapons. As our Humvee stopped behind the truck, a Marine in the vehicle ahead of us leapt out, pointed his rifle into the window of the pickup and sprayed it with gunfire. It was a cold-blooded execution.

As we continued forward, passing the truck, I glimpsed at least two corpses sprawled on the seats, the interior spattered with blood. During the brief moment I looked, I was unable to determine whether the dead men possessed weapons. None of the four Marines in our Humvee said anything. We had been awake for more than 30 hours, much of that time under steady mortar, rifle, machine-gun, and rocket-propelled grenade fire from enemy combatants who dressed in civilian clothes and moved around on the battlefield in Toyota pickups. (To make matters even more confusing, during the height of combat farmers were racing into the surrounding fields—where enemy soldiers were shooting at us from dug-in, concealed positions—in order to rescue sheep from the gunfire.)

In the previous few minutes we had already passed more than a dozen corpses strewn by the side of the road. Some had the tops of their heads missing, expertly hit by Marine riflemen. Others were burned—still smoking, actually—having crawled out of other vehicles set ablaze by rockets fired from Marine helicopters. The execution of one or two more men wasn’t worth commenting on.

I greeted the sight of dead Iraqis in the pickup with a sense of numb relief. At least they would not be trying to kill us that day. In the preceding two-and-a-half weeks, the unit I was embedded with had come under frequent enemy attack, with three Marines wounded. There were 23 bullet holes in the Humvee I rode in—miraculously, none of the five of us inside had been hit. I had developed a strange relationship with the sight of dead Iraqis. I felt safer when I saw them.

I felt especially comforted when I saw dead men by the road still clutching weapons in their hands, a common sight. Unfortunately, of the hundreds of dead people I saw on the roads leading from the Kuwait border to Baghdad, perhaps 20 percent or more were obviously civilians. I will never forget the three or four women I saw fatally shot and partially burned, still seated in a bus on the road north of Nasiriyah. Or the little girl, about four, lying by the side of the road in a pretty dress, her legs neatly and inexplicably chopped off at the knees. Mercifully, I remember thinking at the time, she was dead like all the others.

Since my return from Iraq, I have continued to watch the horror unfold on television. It’s different seeing the violence decontextualized from the battlefield, now playing out in discrete video clips that run between ads for Chevys and the Olive Garden. Videos of militants staging beheadings against dungeon-like backdrops, with the perpetrators wearing masks and the victims in colorful jumpsuits, seem almost like grotesque TV shows.

One of the great ironies of the Bush administration, obsessed as it is with Christian values and the attendant crusade to punish what it deems obscene and lewd in the media (from Janet Jackson’s breast to Howard Stern’s speech), is that it has given us a war in which the airing of snuff films on national TV has become routine. The conflict in Iraq, as seen through news coverage, has begun to resemble the macabre underground 1980s video series Faces of Death. Throw in the images produced by the U.S. Army at Abu Ghraib, and the administration has put itself in the running to successfully compete with the BDSM side of the porn industry.

Just as I thought I was adjusting to the video carnage, NBC correspondent Kevin Sites, embedded with U.S. forces in Falluja, gave us last week’s shocker: the video of a Marine standing over a wounded, apparently unarmed Arab sprawled on the floor of a mosque and executing him with a gunshot to the head.

It brought back memories of the April 9 episode and others I witnessed in Iraq. Yet, watching this on TV, I felt the same outrage many others have expressed. American soldiers, we like to believe, don’t shoot unarmed people. Not only is this morally repugnant, but execution of wounded, unarmed combatants violates Article Three of the Geneva Convention Relative to the Treatment of Prisoners of War, which states in part that “persons taking no active part in the hostilities, including members of armed forces who have laid down their arms and those placed hors de combat by sickness, wounds, detention, or any other cause, shall in all circumstances be treated humanely.”

Even to those unfamiliar with the Geneva Conventions, it seems obvious from the mosque video that a war crime was committed. The response from the administration and military officials has been unusually swift. Ambassador to Iraq John Negroponte conveyed his regrets to Prime Minister Ayad Allawi and vowed that “the individual in question will be dealt with.” The Marine in the video, whose name has been withheld, was pulled from duty, and his commanders issued a statement promising to investigate what they called “an allegation of the unlawful use of force in the death of an enemy combatant.” Lieutenant General John F. Sattler, commander of the 1st Marine Expeditionary Force in Iraq, added in an interview, “We follow the law of armed conflict and hold ourselves to a high standard of accountability.”

One thing military officials are not saying is that the behavior of the Marine in the video closely conforms to training that is fairly standard in some units. Marines call executing wounded combatants “dead-checking.”

“They teach us to do dead-checking when we’re clearing rooms,” an enlisted Marine recently returned from Iraq told me. “You put two bullets into the guy’s chest and one in the brain. But when you enter a room where guys are wounded you might not know if they’re alive or dead. So they teach us to dead-check them by pressing them in the eye with your boot, because generally a person, even if he’s faking being dead, will flinch if you poke him there. If he moves, you put a bullet in the brain. You do this to keep the momentum going when you’re flowing through a building. You don’t want a guy popping up behind you and shooting you.”

What I’d seen on that road outside of Baquba on April 9 was a dead-check. The Marine who fired into that Toyota with wounded men inside didn’t want anybody shooting at us as we went past. It may have been a war crime, and had I possessed a video camera at the time and filmed it, the Marine who fired into the truck might have faced punishment. As it was, no one questioned the Marine’s actions.

In fact, commanders in the Marine Corps during the period I was embedded with them in the spring of 2003 repeatedly emphasized that the men’s actions would not be questioned. As one of the officers in the unit I followed used to tell his men, “You will be held accountable for the facts not as they are in hindsight but as they appeared to you at the time. If, in your mind, you fire to protect yourself or your men, you are doing the right thing. It doesn’t matter if later on we find out you wiped out a family of unarmed civilians.”

Commanders didn’t want their men to suffer casualties because they were overly constrained by rules of engagement. At the same time, Marines were constantly drilled in refraining from shooting their weapons, even at certain times when they came under fire. On one afternoon I recall in particular, the unit I was with was ordered to hold a position on the outskirts of a hostile town. For six hours, insurgents fired at the Marines from rooftops and from behind piles of rubble they’d set up in streets as barricades. But the Marines I was with, unable to pinpoint the exact locations of the enemy shooters, refused to fire back for fear of hitting civilians. The 22-year-old radio operator of the team I was with had it within his power to call in an artillery strike on the corner of the town where most of the enemy forces seemed concentrated. At one point, while I was crouched in the dirt, taking cover behind the tire of the Humvee as enemy sniper rounds popped into the dust nearby, I asked him why he didn’t call in a strike. He simply laughed at my display of fear.

There were other times when the enlisted men in the unit fell into violent quarrels with others whom they felt were too aggressive and risked civilian lives. In one instance, enlisted men nearly came to blows with an officer whom they accused of firing a weapon into a house that they believed contained civilians. Despite their concern, terrible mistakes were made. I was standing next to a 22-year-old Marine from the Humvee I rode in when he fired his machine gun prematurely at a civilian car approaching a roadblock, striking the driver, an unarmed man, in the eye. The unit was subsequently ordered to drive past the car without rendering aid. I sat next to the gunner as we crept past, listening to the dying man gasp for breath. The gunner didn’t talk for the next three days. A few days earlier, the youngest Marine on the team had shot a 12-year-old boy four times in the chest with his machine gun, mistakenly thinking a stick the boy had been carrying was a weapon. When the mother and grandmother of the boy later dragged him to the Marines’ lines seeking medical aid, the sergeant who led the team dropped down in front of the mother and cried.

The Marines constantly debated the morality of what they were engaged in. A sergeant in the platoon told me he had consulted with his priest about killing. The priest had told him it was all right to kill for his government so long as he didn’t enjoy it. By the time the unit reached the outskirts of Baghdad, this sergeant was certain he had already killed at least four men. When his battalion commander praised the unit for “slaying dragons” on the way to Baghdad, the sergeant later told his men, “If we did half the shit back home we’ve done here, we’d be in prison.” By then, the sergeant told me, he’d reconsidered what his priest had told him about killing. “Where the fuck did Jesus say it’s OK to kill people for your government? Any priest who tells me that has got no credibility.”

He and several other Marines recently returned from Iraq (many from their second tours) whom I’ve talked to about the Falluja shooting say they are not sure they would have dead-checked the wounded man in the mosque had they been in the same position. Most say they probably would have, even though the mosque had already been cleared once. “What does the American public think happens when they tell us to assault a city?” one of them said. “Marines don’t shoot rainbows out of our asses. We fucking kill people.”

Another Marine in the unit I followed—a Democrat’s dream, he returned home from fighting in Falluja in time to vote for Kerry—added, “Americans celebrate war in their movies. We like to see visions of evil being defeated by good. When the people at home glimpse the reality of war, that it’s a bloodbath, they freak out. We are a subculture they created and programmed to fight their wars. You have to become a psycho to kill like we do. To most Marines that guy in the mosque was just someone who didn’t get hit in the right place the first time we shot him. I probably would have put a bullet in his brain if I’d been there. If the American public doesn’t like the violence of war, maybe before they start the next war they shouldn’t rush so much.”

Evan Wright is the author of Generation Kill, about a Marine reconnaissance unit in Iraq.

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Medics Testify to Fallujah’s Horrors

Medics Testify to Fallujah’s Horrors

Navy Corpsmen Treated Unusually Devastating Injuries at Field Hospital

By Jackie Spinner
Washington Post Staff Writer
Wednesday, November 24, 2004; Page A15

FALLUJAH, Iraq — The first time Jose Ramirez saw a human body ripped apart by a rocket, it took hours for him to regain his composure. Nothing in his training as a Navy medical corpsman had prepared him for the sight of the dead Marine brought in September to the military field hospital outside Fallujah.

“I walked around in shock,” said Ramirez, 26, of San Antonio, a Navy petty officer third class attached to Bravo Surgical Company. “I’ve seen people die before on the emergency room table. But what I was trying not to do, what I was trained not to do, is look at the patient with tunnel vision. It reminded me that I had to get prepared.”

Two months later, when the first wounded American and Iraqi troops arrived at the hospital after storming Fallujah, Ramirez had braced for the worst.

“It doesn’t hit me when I’m working on a patient. But after we’re cleaning up, and I see the blood on the floor or I see someone bagging a piece of arm or leg, I know it’s going to be in my mind for the rest of my life,” Ramirez said.

Fifty-one U.S. troops have been killed and 425 wounded since the ground assault on this insurgent stronghold began on Nov. 8. Although U.S. commanders say they control the city, Marine units are still going door to door to root out the remaining fighters, sometimes with deadly consequences.

Medics at the Bravo Surgical Company’s field hospital, where all the battlefield dead and wounded are brought, said the injuries that troops sustained in the Fallujah fight were unusually devastating, most of them the result of close-range explosions.

“They’re just horrific injuries,” said Chief Petty Officer Damon Sanders, head of the shock stabilization team. “We saw an increasing amount of shrapnel wounds. Typically there are one or two people who take the brunt of the blast, and the rest of the guys take shrapnel.”

Sanders, 36, of Temecula, Calif., said the injuries sustained in Fallujah were more severe than those typically suffered in Iraq, largely because the insurgents had been in control of the city for months and were ready to fight.

“It’s when you’re waiting, you give the enemy time to set up,” he said. “When they’re running, they can’t do as much.”

Marine Lance Cpl. Davi Allen said he saw little action in the first days of the Fallujah offensive. But last week, after the city had mostly been secured, he and his platoon — part of the 1st Battalion, 3rd Marine Regiment — were clearing houses in one of the northern neighborhoods that troops swept through at the start of the offensive. After going through about 50 houses, Allen, 21, of Cloverdale, Ore., was looking around the small living room of a residence when he heard gunshots coming from the kitchen.

He looked over and saw a grenade roll into the room. The house’s windows had bars on them, and the grenade was too close to the doorway for Allen to make a run for it. He said he had no choice but to ride it out.

“I balled myself in the corner and waited,” he said. “It blew up behind me.”

Two Marines were injured and one was killed in the attack. Medics brought Allen to Bravo Surgical with 24 pieces of shrapnel in his backside. One of the corpsmen who treated him was Ramirez.

When Allen recounted the tale last weekend, he was standing outside the hospital, sipping a soda. Ramirez dashed by to help carry an injured Iraqi detainee to a waiting ambulance, then came over to talk to Allen. They share an interest in rap music, the two said, and Ramirez repeated a promise to bring Allen some music.

“I knew eventually I’d get hurt,” Allen said, cuts still visible on his hands and arms. “I was lucky just to get a grenade. I just want to go back home and see my wife.”

Ramirez said the hospital prepared for large numbers of wounded troops before the battle began. But he and his colleagues did not prepare for what he called “the walking wounded.” At the last minute, the corpsmen set up a tent to deal with patients who were not brought in on stretchers. Another tent was set up for Iraqi detainees. That freed up some space for the seriously injured, he said, but so many were carried in that a lounge had to be turned into a triage room.

“When they told us we’d go into Fallujah, many of us thought we’d see gunshot wounds, but not people with limbs already amputated due to the blast,” Ramirez said.

He spent a lot of time reassuring troops that they were getting the best care possible. “There was one soldier, and I needed to put an IV in his arm,” Ramirez recalled. “He was really nervous, and I told him, ‘Look man, you just survived a blast.’ “

Sanders said the hospital staff worked around the clock during the height of the battle, particularly as troops pushed into Fallujah’s southern neighborhoods and confronted a hard core of better-trained insurgents.

There are days, Sanders said, that he and his crew will never forget.

“You’re seeing your brothers come in, but you can’t see them. You’re almost like a machine,” he said. “The history we’ve gone through here will forever make us family. If we see each other 10 years from now, not a word will have to be spoken.”

During a recent break, Ramirez imagined facing his mother and what he would say to her. He joined the Navy 8 1/2 years ago to become a medical corpsman after her breast cancer was diagnosed. A single parent, his mother raised him to be the best at what he did, no matter what path he chose, Ramirez said.

“I would honestly be afraid to go back home and tell my family I didn’t perform the best I could,” he said. “I couldn’t look my mother in the eye.”

In the distance, but close enough for the ground to shake, an explosion thundered, sending a dark mushroom cloud toward the clear, blue sky.

“We’ll know soon enough if it was incoming,” Ramirez said, stretching his legs. “I will shoot if I have to. I have shot at people, but that’s not what I’m here for. I’m here to save lives.”

A few minute passed, then a half-hour, and no ambulance raced to the door of the hospital.

“There’s just one thing I want you to know,” Ramirez said, before turning to walk away. “There is a corpsman in the memorial of Iwo Jima. He’s a pharmacist mate, second class, John Bradley. He was there in the fight. Most people don’t know that.”

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Federal Judge Blocks Vote Counting in Ohio

Recount Can Wait, Federal Judge RulesFrom Times Wire Reports
November 24, 2004

A federal judge in Toledo denied a request by third-party presidential candidates who wanted to force a recount of Ohio ballots before the official count was finished.

Judge James G. Carr ruled that the candidates have a right under Ohio law to a recount, but said it could wait. The judge wrote that he saw no reason to interfere with the final stages of Ohio’s electoral process. Officials have said the results will be certified by Dec. 6.

The lawsuit by Green Party presidential candidate David Cobb and Libertarian candidate Michael Badnarik had asked Carr to issue an order requiring the state to immediately begin a statewide recount.

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PTSD and my Iraq Homecoming

Nightmare #1

I am in command of a four-vehicle convoy in Iraq.  We are skirting the edge of a town on our way back to our camp after having performed a mission elsewhere.  My vehicles are unarmored HMMWV’s mounted with a variety of machineguns.  Although we are not expecting contact, we are loaded for bear.

There is a scattering of buildings around, but none of them appear to be residential.  I look down to check my map when there is a large explosion to my front.  I look up and my lead vehicle has been blow off the road and spun at a 90-degree angle.  Smoke is pouring from it, but it is not completely destroyed.

Nightmare Continued:

I have just enough time to mutter, “Fuck…” when bullets start pinging of the hood of my vehicle.  “RPG LEFT!” my gunner shouts and I see the rocket streaking towards us from a building about 100 meters away.  The RPG explodes in just in front of my vehicle and shreds the engine block.  We stall.  I’m hit by shrapnel, and so is my gunner.  My driver looses control, and we crash into a low brick wall.  My head slams into the windshield cracking it.

Bullets are bouncing around in the vehicle, and smoke is pouring out of the engine.  My driver is trying to frantically start the engine.  I yell at him to get out of the truck, take cover behind the wall, and return fire.  It probably sounds something like this:
 GetthefuckoutBehindthatfuckingwallAstartshootingthosemotherfuckers.

“Where the fuck are they?” I shout to my gunner.  

“Fucking building on the left,” he shouts back.  He is heroically staying up on our .50 cal machinegun.  “Can’t ID a fucking target.”

“Fuck it,” I shout.  “Light it up.  Hit all the windows and doors.”

He begins systematically tearing the building to shreds, and I work the radios trying to take control of the situation.  I get out of the vehicle too and crouch next to it so I can use my M-4 if necessary.  We are still taking heavy fire from the building.

I think I see a muzzle flash from a doorway, and more bullets buzz around me.  I duck walk to the back of the vehicle and pull an out an AT-4 rocket launcher.  I start getting the rocket ready for launch, but my hands stop working.  I can’t arm the rocket no matter how hard I try to get my hands to move.
I try to yell something to my gunner, but I can’t get any words to come out.  I try to force myself to speak, but nothing comes out.  I’m making a low gurgling sound.  I try harder to say something, and I finally get something to come out…

…I wake up shouting in a cold sweat.

Nightmare #2:

We have broken the ambush, and I have assaulted one of the buildings that we have taken fire from.  We find civilian casualties behind the building.  Two women.  A man.  And a little girl.  The little girl’s body is shattered.  We will evacuate her, but she dies in the helicopter.  The medics apparently spend almost an hour trying to revive her.

The girl looks up at me with piercing eyes like she has something to tell me.  She opens her mouth…

I wake up in a cold sweat.

Nightmare #3:

The phone rings.  It’s my reserve unit.  We’re getting sent back to Iraq…

My Homecoming

I’ve been a Kossack for only a short time, but I think I have a unique perspective.  I’ve seen a lot of talk about Iraq on this site.  I keep seeing the phrase “war criminal” over and over, and it hurts me deeply.  So, I wrote this diary to give you all some perspective.  I am hoping that you understand who you are pointing a finger at, and the emotional impact.

I got back from Iraq last fall.  I had been called back to active duty from the reserves right after Sept 11th, and I had been gone more or less ever since.  I spent the first year supporting other operations, but I was sent to Kuwait in early 2003 as part of the buildup for Iraq.  We crossed the “berm” into Iraq three days behind the main invasion force, and my team moved around throughout the country for the next several months.  The ambush that I described above happened towards the end of my deployment.   My wounds were superficial, and I now only bear faint scars.

It took us a few days to get home from Iraq.  I was only coming back with a few people that I knew.  People in my original unit had more or less been farmed out all over to different units and operations.  But, our mobilization time had run out.  So they sent us back, but I was coming home with only a few guys/gals from my actual unit.  We left behind most of the people who we had been in Iraq with.  Two days after we left, one of them lost an arm and the use of his leg in another ambush.

We flew back in a big Air Force transport plane filled with soldiers to an Army post in Texas.  When we landed, we went into one of the hangars.  It was filled with friends and families, and there was even a band.  I cannot describe to you how I felt when I got out of that plane.  When I saw my wife rushing towards me, I was in the deepest state of bliss that I have ever felt.  
I imagine that hangar must be what heaven is like.  You are safe and surrounded by people you love and care deeply about.  And everyone around you is surrounded by love and joy.  And for a brief, fleeting moment there is no pain or fear or doubt.  You are home and all is right.

They gave us a couple days off, and my wife and I spent them mostly in bed.  She made a lot viagra jokes.  After my time off was up she went home, and I stayed at the Army post.

The reservist in my group began out-processing.  We filled out a bunch of forms, got the briefings that tell us not the beat our wives when we get back, had a little cheesy ceremony where they played a tape of Lee Greenwood’s “Proud to Be an American”, and then they let us go home.

I got in my truck, popped in Robert Earl Keen’s “The Road Goes on Forever”, and drove home across the Texas hill country.  All was right with the world.  Everything was going to be fine.

I got to the outskirts of the “blue” city where I live, and as I left the suburbs, I started noticing changes.  The “we support our troops” signs and American flags gave way to peace symbols and “American For Peace” yard signs.  I was dressed in my desert uniform, and I started getting funny looks at stop signs.

When I was in Iraq, I was the token liberal officer.  At the time, I believed in what we were doing even though I didn’t like President Bush.  I thought we were right as a nation despite who our leadership was, and I was angry with the war protesters.  But, I would still argue other liberal points of view.  One night, a senior officer who was very conservative, but whom I deeply respect told me this: “You know they hate you, don’t you?  You are a smart talented warrior.  You are among the finest of your generation, but they cannot accept that the world needs men like you.  They hate you and everything you stand for.”

I disagreed with him, but as I drove deeper into “blue” territory; I was beginning to think he was right.

My wife had warned me that I might not be happy with the neighborhood when I got back, and I could see why when I pulled on to my street.  There were only two yellow ribbons on display in our neighborhood.  One was in front of my house, and the other in front of the Vietnam vet at the end of the block.  The rest were a mixed bag of “peace” signs, and each and every one of them felt like a kick in the gut.  I had a deep and viscerally angry reaction when I saw them.  I believed in what I had done in Iraq, and I was insulted.  

The Vietnam vet, who has since moved, was the only one of my neighbors who made an effort to check up on my wife.  Everybody else more or less ignored her.  

I pulled up to my house, and started unloading my stuff.  My wife wasn’t home from work yet so I was alone.  One of my neighbors, who is a true-believer Nader-type, came up to me in the yard looking like he had something to say.

“Welcome back,” he said.  “I just want you to know that I don’t agree with what you were doing over there.”  Another kick in the gut.

“Been waiting to say that long?” I asked in a tone that tells him he just fucked up.  “The truth is I don’t give a shit what you think and why don’t you get out of my sight.”

I finished unloading my truck and went in the house and fumed.  By the time my wife got home, I was on my fourth or fifth beer.  

We went out with some friends later that night to celebrate.  I was jumpy and felt out of place.  It felt like people didn’t know how to treat me.  I ended up getting very drunk.

My wife had told my neighbors that I was coming home and not to worry if they started seeing a strange man around.  The only one of them that came over “welcome” me back was the Vietnam vet.  He asked me if I was okay.   “I’m fine.  Everything is fine.”  He didn’t look like he was buying it.  He was right.

Things began to get worse.  I had almost sixty days of leave built up, and I didn’t want to go back to work.  I was tired, and I wanted a break.  But, I wasn’t getting much sleep because I was used to only getting a few hours a night so I stayed up too late watching too much news and drinking to much beer.  I started getting up in the morning and making a pot of coffee.  I would guzzle the coffee, get wired, and begin obsessively catching up on the news.  

I also began obsessively writing angry emails and letters.  The whole time I was in Iraq, I kept a “heap of shit” list of people who had pissed me off.  The Dixie Chicks.  Susan Serandon.  Janine Garafalo.  A bunch of reporters.  Magazines.  Blogs.  Everybody got a letter.

I found myself getting angry and impatient all the time, especially to my wife.  Nothing moved at the pace I was used to.  Everyday life seemed trivial, and I had a tough time connecting with people in my life.  I was so angry all the time.  I was on edge, and my jaw started hurting because I kept it clenched so much.

I was filled with an impending sense of dread, and the bad dreams began.  I started drinking more, but I didn’t notice it.  I was on vacation damn it.  I could have a beer for breakfast if I wanted.  I glared at my neighbor every time I saw him.

My wife and I took a trip, and things got better for while.  I could finally relax, but things came to a head at Christmas.  I grew up in a bitterly divorced household so I more or less hate the holidays anyway.   My family was fawning over me giving me more attention than I wanted or deserved.  And they were loud.  I can’t take loud anymore.  Loud means bad things are happening.

One of my stupid but well-meaning Jesus-freak relatives gave me a copy of  “Chicken soup for the Veteran’s Soul”.  I went ape shit.

“What the fuck did you get this for?” I shouted.  “You think I’m weak?  You think I need this shit?  I’m fine.  Everything is fine.”

I stormed out.  We were out of beer, and I went to look for somewhere that’s open so I can pick some up.  It was Christmas morning.

After Christmas, I got home from my family’s house.  My wife found the Chicken soup book in the trashcan, and she scolded me for it.

“You’re taking their side?” I shouted.  “Fuck this.  You’re taking their side over me?”

She told me that I’m being an ass.  She’s not one of my soldiers, and I can’t boss her around.  She says that I’m treating everyone around me like shit.

“Great,” I shouted.  “How’s this for shit.  I hate this house.  I hate this neighborhood.  I hate this marriage.  And I’m beginning to hate you.”

I stormed out, and got in my truck.  I revved the engine and screeched down the street.  I stopped about two blocks away, and sat for a few minutes.  I know what I should have done.  I should have turned around, and gone back to the house.  I should have gone in, embraced her, and apologized.  This was the beautiful woman I promised to love and cherish, and I was shitting all over that.

“Fuck it,” I decided. “I’m right.  She’s wrong.”

I got out my cell phone and called my buddy.  He met me at bar not far from a college campus.  I began ranting about how unhappy I was and how I’m going to divorce her.  He was shocked because he believed that we have a good marriage.  Everyone believed we have a good marriage.  In fact, we did, but I was slowly destroying it.

The bar got crowded.  My buddy and I are sitting a big table and some college kids asked us if they could join us.  Somehow it came up in conversation that I just go back from Iraq.  One of the kids, a frat boy, says cool.

“It’s about time we started kicking some ass,” Frat boy said.

“We?” I asked.  My mood darkened, but he didn’t notice.

“Yeah, we should kick all their asses.”

“You mean me, right?  You joining up?”

He was drunk enough to think I was joking.

“You ever shoot anyone over there?” he asked.

“You should never ask anyone that question,” I said and thought of the little girl.  “You might not like the answer you get.”

“Hah! That means you didn’t.”

I stood up.  “Listen here you little motherfucker.  I’ve killed plenty of people, and I’m fixin’ to get me one more.  I’m going to knock your fucking teeth down the back of your throat, and then I’m going to go to work on you.  You’re gonna have a couple months in the hospital to think about where you fucked up.”

He stood.  “Let’s go.”

My buddy grabs me.  “It’s not worth it,” he pled.

“The hell it isn’t,” I answered, and I stepped forward.  I was going to fuck this kid up.  Some evil piece of my mind told me that the cops would side with me.  I would get away with it.  I looked over to the kid.  He was backing away, fear in his eyes.

“Its not worth it,” my buddy pled again.  I was suddenly aware that everyone was looking at me like I’m a monster.  I was one.

I went home, and begged my wife to forgive me.  She said that she didn’t know if she could.  I promised to get help.

The next morning I called the VA.  The waiting list for counseling was months long.  I have kept civilian insurance from my wife’s company so I called them.  I wasn’t covered.  I was still eligible for TRICARE (military HMO) benefits so I called them.  They told me to call the VA.  I felt like Yosarian in “Catch 22”.

So I did what I’ve done my whole life.  I called my grandparents (who I’m diaried about) and asked for help.  My grandfather told me to come visit, and I complied.  I went to their town alone.  I was scared that I had totally fucked up my life.

When I got there we ended up talking for hours.  My grandmother had done her homework.  She boned up on everything from the bible to Dave Grossman’s “On Killing”.  ) She had battle-tracked the entire war, and saved all my letters and emails.  She prayed.  I suspect that she has also had a long talk with my wife.

We talked long on into the night, and my granddad and me have a few beers.  We both needed them to loosen up.  He told me some things about WWII that he’s never talked about.  I grew up listening to his stories, and he told me that he blames himself for glorifying the military to me.  He talks to me about a close friend who survived many, many missions in WWII who got home and hung himself.  He told me about some of the bad shit that he had seen and done.  

My grandmother was firm with me about how I was treating my wife.  I was wrong, and she made me see my behavior for what it was.  She died this year.  Her life had been filled with many generous and kind acts, and I think her final act of kindness to me was saving my marriage.

I went back home, and my wife and I started going to counseling.  It turns out that we were both suffering from post-traumatic stress.  Her company had been having lay-offs, she had been running the household completely on her own, and she had been gripped by fear the entire time I was in Iraq.  She had even gotten into a confrontation with a clerk in a “hip” store here in town that was displaying some particularly offensive anti-war rhetoric.  Our community and the Army reserves did not provide her any support, and she suffered for it.

I went back to work, and tried to immerse myself in staying busy.  I went on anti-depressants for a while, and we worked through it. Before I left, I had been working part time on a master’s degree.  I finished it.  I cut down the beer to three a week.  I still glared at my neighbor, but fuck him.  I’m only willing to mend so many fences.  And besides we ended up moving across town into a bigger house so we could start a family.  We thought about going back into the active-duty army where we had been part of one big extended family.  But, we decided to stay out.

Time passes on.  Most of the “we support our troops” signs have been taken down or are faded.  Yellow ribbons have become faddish accessories to stick next to your George Bush sticker on your SUV.

I’d like to say that I’m not angry anymore, but it would be a lie.  I am deeply pissed off at over 50 million of my fellow countrymen, and despite what John Kerry says, I can’t forgive and forget.  I don’t care about healing.  I want a reckoning, and I want my party to deliver.

Time has given me some distance from the war, but Iraq won’t go away.  I feel like I’m living with a knife at my throat.   More and more of my friends and my soldiers get sent over there.  A close friend got killed, and the funeral was tough.  I began obsessing over Iraq and counter-insurgencies.  I got involved in the election.  I found DailyKOS, and I started posting.  I jump all over anything that has to do with Iraq, and I worry about making an ass out of myself.  But, I can’t help it.  I want my story told.

For me there is no closure.  I will probably get called back up.  It’s only a matter of time.  So I can’t forget about Iraq or Afghanistan.  I have to keep learning.  I have to keep my mind in the game, and sometimes my civilian job suffers for it.

As I write this, my wife is in the kitchen making dinner.  I am safe and sound at home.  I can say I’m “fine” and it’s the truth.  I’m okay and getting better everyday.  But, I will never be the same.  I saw something in myself that I am still scared of.  

I don’t want to go to war again, but I will if I get called back.  It’s my duty and maybe I’ll handle my homecoming better this time.  I’m also going to stay in the Army Reserves because those soldiers deserve good leadership that I think I can provide.

I am pessimistic about Iraq, and I think the anti-war movement in this country is going to gain momentum and grow in scale.  I’m pessimistic about that too.  I’ve seen some heated rhetoric on this site, and out there in the liberal bloodstream.  Hatred for Bush has pushed some of our ideology into the extreme, and I think it’s going to get worse.  The reaction to the Vietnam anti-war movement and the 60’s pushed this country far to the right, and we all suffer for it.  I think we should be extremely cautious in how we approach this problem.  If there is to be an anti-war movement, it should be Middle Americans doing it and not the anti-everything protest crowd.  They will only push more people away from us.

I know many soldiers who have gone through more or less the same thing that I did, and our government and society don’t do enough to understand or help.

Here are some of my suggestions as to what you can do:

  • Avoid Chicken soup books.
  • If you know of meet someone who has been in the war, please don’t confront them with your politics unless they open the discussion.  You will only piss them off and you could be in danger.  The nicest thing to do is welcome them home and leave it at that.
  • If you are close to someone who has just returned, do not be surprised if things are not perfect.  Do your best to understand what they went through.  Shelter your loved one from reality for a while.  If you have been paying the bills, mowing the yard, and generally doing all the work, do it for a little while longer.  They need time to decompress.
  • Be a good listener if you are close to someone who has been in the war.  Do research into the signs of deteriorating mental health.
  • If you are a benefits manager or in human resources at a corporation, insure that veterans are covered for counseling.
  • If you are a mental health professional, look for a way to volunteer time to veterans.
  • Write your congressman and demand more mental health benefits for veterans.
  • If you care about the war, I think you should care about the warriors.  You don’t have to support the war to be decent to those who fought it.  Some of them have done some really bad stuff, most of us haven’t.  We didn’t create this mess.  So I would encourage you to be careful with the “war criminal” label.  Think of it as the ultimate “super troll” rating and save it for special occasions.

If anyone else has ideas or suggestions of would like to share, please post below.

http://www.dailykos.com/story/2004/11/23/95414/024

 

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Government Accountability Office (GAO) to Investigate 2004 Election Irregularities

Government Accountability Office to Conduct Investigation of 2004 Election Irregularities

WASHINGTON — November 23 — Reps. John Conyers, Jr., Jerrold Nadler, Robert Wexler, Robert Scott, and Rush Holt announced today that, in response to their November 5 and 8 letters to the Government Accountability Office (GAO), the GAO has decided to move forward with an investigation of election irregularities in the 2004 election. The five Members issued the following statement:

“We are pleased that the GAO has reviewed the concerns expressed in our letters and has found them of sufficient merit to warrant further investigation. On its own authority, the GAO will examine the security and accuracy of voting technologies, distribution and allocation of voting machines, and counting of provisional ballots. We are hopeful that GAO’s non-partisan and expert analysis will get to the bottom of the flaws uncovered in the 2004 election. As part of this inquiry, we will provide copies of specific incident reports received in our offices, including more than 57,000 such complaints provided to the House Judiciary Committee.

“The core principle of any democracy is the consent of the governed. All Americans, no matter how they voted, need to have confidence that when they cast their ballot, their voice is heard.”

The Members listed above were joined in requesting the non-partisan GAO investigation by Reps. Melvin Watt, John Olver, Bob Filner, Gregory Meeks, Barbara Lee, Tammy Baldwin, Louise Slaughter and George Miller.

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Ohio Democrats joins recount effort

Ohio Dems joins recount effort

Keith Olbermann (Bloggermann), November 21, 2004 | 5:51 p.m. ET

SECAUCUS— The headline might be a little expansive since the national headquarters has not yet echoed it, but it’s still pretty impressive as it is:

“Kerry/Edwards Campaign Joins Ohio Recount.”

The news release was issued this afternoon over the signature of Ohio’s Democratic chairman, Dennis White: “As Senator Kerry stated in his concession speech in Boston, we do not necessarily expect the results of the election to change, however, we believe it necessary to make sure everyone’s vote is counted fairly and accurately.” White called for witnesses, volunteers, and donations.

The statement ends nearly three weeks of official Democratic ambivalence towards the formal recount process in the election’s decisive state. As late as Friday, Senator Kerry’s email to 3,000,000 supporters contained a seemingly ambiguous reference to that process, which began with the phrase “Regardless of the outcome of this election, once all the votes are counted, and believe me they will be counted, we will continue to challenge the administration.”

It had been left to the independent parties, the Greens and Libertarians, to do the initial work demanding a recount in each of Ohio’s 88 counties. Their combined effort led to a bond of $113,600 being posted with the state last Friday to guarantee the coverage of expenses incurred. Just today, the “Glibs” amplified their demands in Ohio, filing a federal lawsuit that, if successful, would require the completion of the “full, hand recount” before the meeting of the Electoral College on December 13.

The Ohio Democrats did not attach themselves to the lawsuit. “The recount can begin after the official results are certified, which likely will be in the first week of December,” reads the news release. “The Democratic party wants to be fully prepared to begin a recount immediately.”

Howard Fineman joins me on Countdown tonight at 8 and Midnight eastern to discuss the ramifications.

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• November 21, 2004 | 5:51 p.m. ET

Relax about Ohio, Relax about the guy tailing me (Keith Olbermann)

NEW YORK— Anybody else notice that when you politely refer to the Secretary of State of Ohio, you have to call him “Mr. Blackwell,” just like that guy who compiles the goofy worst-dressed list?

Mr. Kenneth Blackwell is the subject of three actions regarding the Ohio vote that you haven’t seen on television yet. Each (the Cobb/Badnarik Recount bid, the Alliance for Democracy legal challenge, and the Ohio Democratic Party suit over provisional ballots) has an undertone suggesting time is of the essence, and that he is wasting it. The accusation may or may not be true, but it also may or may not be relevant.

The Glibs’ recount effort was underscored last week by their letters to Blackwell insisting he hurry up and finish certifying the count well before the announced deadline of December 6, because otherwise, there won’t be enough time for the recount before the voting of the Electoral College on December 13. The Alliance attorney Clifford Arnebeck told The Columbus Dispatch that his quite separate legal challenge to the election must be addressed immediately because “time is critical.” The local Democrats haven’t been commenting on their low-flying suit – more about that later. They’re just smiling quietly to themselves.

Cobb, Badnarik, Arnebeck, and everybody else actually has more time than they think. I addressed this topic with the wonderfully knowledgeable George Washington University Constitutional Law professor, Jonathan Turley, back on Countdown on November 9th. He noted the election process is a little slower— and has one more major loophole— than is generally known. It begins on December 7th, the date “when you essentially certify your electors… it gives a presumption to the legitimacy to your votes. And then, on the 13th, the electors actually vote.”

But, Turley noted, “those votes are not opened by Congress until January 6. Now, if there are controversies, such as some disclosure that a state actually went for Kerry (instead of Bush), there is the ability of members of Congress to challenge.” In other words, even after the December 13th Electoral College Vote, in the extremely unlikely scenario that a court overturns the Ohio count, or that the recount discovers 4,000 Gahanna-style machines that each recorded 4,000 votes too many for one candidate, there is still a mechanism to correct the error, honest or otherwise.

“It requires a written objection from one House member and one senator,” Turley continues. Once that objection is raised, the joint meeting of the two houses is discontinued. “Then both Houses separate again and they vote by majority vote as to whether to accept the slate of electoral votes from that state.”

In these super-heated partisan times, it may seem like just another prospective process decided by majority rule instead of fact. But envision the far-fetched scenario of some dramatic, conclusive new result from Ohio turning up around, say, January 4th. What congressman or senator in his right mind would vote to seat the candidate who lost the popular vote in Ohio? We wouldn’t be talking about party loyalty any more – we’d be talking about pure political self-interest here, and whenever in our history that critical mass has been achieved, it’s been every politician for himself (ask Barry Goldwater when Richard Nixon trolled for his support in July and August, 1974, or Republican Senator Edmund Ross of Kansas when his was to be the decisive vote that would have impeached President Andrew Johnson in 1868).

The point of this dip into the world of political science fiction is that the Ohio timeframe is a little less condensed than it seems. The drop-dead date is not December 13, but January 6.

It is noteworthy that the announcement of a legal challenge made it into weekend editions of The Cleveland Plain Dealer, The Columbus Dispatch, the Associated Press wires, and other publications. The Columbus paper even mentioned something curious. “Earlier this week, the Ohio Democratic party announced it would join a lawsuit arguing that the state lacks clear rules for evaluating provisional ballots, a move the party said will keep its options open if problems with the ballots surface.”

This makes a little more sense out of a confusing item that appeared in an obscure weekly paper in Westchester County, New York, last Wednesday, in which a reporter named Adam Stone wrote “A top-ranking official with Democratic Senator John Kerry’s presidential campaign told North County News last week that although unlikely, there is a recount effort being waged that could unseat Republican President George Bush.” Stone quotes Kerry spokesman David Wade as saying: “We have 17,000 lawyers working on this, and the grassroots accountability couldn’t be any higher – no (irregularity) will go unchecked. Period.” Gives a little context to Senator Kerry’s opaque mass e-mail and on-line video statement from Friday afternoon.

The Ohio newspaper coverage suggests that even the mainstream media is beginning to sit up and take notice that, whatever its merits, the investigation into the voting irregularities of November 2nd has moved from the Reynolds Wrap Hat stage into legal and governmental action.  Tripe does continue to appear, like Carol Pogash’s column in today’s San Francisco Chronicle. Its headline provided me with a laugh: “Liberals, the election is over, live with it.” I’ve gotten 37,000 emails in the last two weeks (now running at better than 25:1 in favor), and the two most repeated comments by those critical of the coverage have been references to the ratings of Fox News Channel, and the phrase “the election is over, (expletive deleted), live with it. I hesitate to generalize, but this does suggest a certain unwillingness of critics to engage in political discourses that don’t have no swear words in ‘em.

Meantime, The Oakland Tribune not only devoted seventeen paragraphs Friday to the UC Berkeley study on the voting curiosities in Florida, but actually expended considerable energy towards what we used to call ‘advancing the story’: “The UC Berkeley report has not been peer reviewed, but a reputable MIT political scientist succeeded in replicating the analysis Thursday at the request of the Oakland Tribune and The Associated Press. He said an investigation is warranted.”

In fact, he – MIT Arts and Social Sciences Dean Charles Stewart – said more than that. “There is an interesting pattern here that I hope someone looks into.” Stewart is part of the same Cal Tech/MIT Voting Project that had earlier issued a preliminary report suggesting that there was no evidence of significant voting irregularity in Florida. Dean Stewart added he didn’t necessarily buy the Berkeley conclusion – that the only variable that could explain the “excessive” votes in Florida was poisoned touch-screen voting – and still thought there were other options, such as, in the words of The Tribune’s Ian Hoffman “absentee voting or some quirk of election administration.”

Neither MIT nor Cal Tech has yet responded to the comments of several poll-savvy commentators, and others, that its paper was using erroneous statistics. Its premise, you’ll recall, was that on a state-by-state basis, the notorious 2004 Exit Polls were within the margin of error and could be mathematically interpreted as having forecast the announced presidential outcome. It has been observed that the MIT/Cal Tech study used not the “raw” exit polls – as did Professor Steven Freeman of Penn did in his study – but rather the “weighted” polls, in which actual precinct and county official counts are mixed in to “correct” the organic “Hey, Buddy, who’d you vote for” numbers. The “weighted” polls have been analogized to a football handicapper predicting that the New Orleans Saints would beat the Denver Broncos 24-14, then, after the Broncos scored twenty points in the first quarter, announcing his prediction was now that the Saints would beat the Broncos 42-41, or even, that the Broncos would beat the Saints 40-7.

None of the coverage of the Berkeley study clarified a vitally important point about its conclusions regarding the touch-screen wobble in the fifteen Florida counties, and that has led to some unjustified optimism on the activist and Democratic sides. Its math produced two distinct numbers for “ghost votes” for President Bush: 130,000 and 260,000. This has led to the assumption in many quarters that Cal Tech has suggested as many as 260,000 Florida votes could swing from Bush to Kerry (enough to overturn the state). In fact – and the academics got a little too academic in summarizing their report and thus, this kind of got lost – the two numbers already consider the prospect of a swing:

      a) There may have been 130,000 votes simply added to the Bush total. If proved and excised, they would reduce the President’s Florida margin from approximately 350,000 votes to approximately 220,000;

      b) There may have been 130,000 votes switched from Kerry to Bush. If proved and corrected, they would reduce (by double the 130,000 figure – namely 260,000) the President’s Florida margin from approximately 350,000 votes to approximately 90,000.

On the ground in Florida, uncounted ballots continue to turn up in Pinellas County. Last Monday, an unmarked banker’s box with 268 absentee ballots was discovered “sitting in plain sight on an office floor, with papers and other boxes stacked on top of it,” according to The St. Petersburg Times. On Friday, the same paper reported that County Supervisor of Elections Deborah Clark found twelve more—ten provisionals in a blue pouch at a loading dock, and two absentees in a box headed for a storage facility. “I’m sick about this,” the paper quoted Clark, whose office also whiffed on 1400 absentee ballots on Election Day 2000, and counted another 600 twice. Asked by a reporter if the election is over, she replied “I certainly hope so.”

Well, I know how Ms. Clark feels. To close, a little anecdote from Big Town: I approached Seventh Avenue from the east and the guy in the black trenchcoat was walking north.

He got that little surprised look of recognition in his eyes and said “Keith! How are you?” We shook hands and he added, with apparent nervousness, “I’ll just be tailing you for the next block.” I laughed and said I was used to it.

Now, I’ve been getting recognized in public since 1982, and I had a stalker for eight years who once talked her way into ESPN and wound up being escorted to my desk— so I think I can tell the difference between a fan and a threat (this was a fan; a threat doesn’t come up and announce he’s going to tail you). I relate this just because of the timing. In the last week, I have read that I’ve been fired, suspended, muzzled, threatened (that, I think, was my NBC colleague Kevin Sites, who reported the Marine prisoner shooting in Iraq— our mailbox had a couple of those), and in the middle of it, I get a ‘What’s the frequency Kenneth moment’ from a fan who was just trying to be funny.

The laugh was genuine. As was my decision to cross the street.

Write me at

KOlbermann@msnbc.com

(Olbermann returns from not very much of a vacation to host Countdown, Monday November 22, 8:00 P.M. ET. Presumably.)

• November 19, 2004 | 5:39 p.m. ET

Didn’t you run for president once? (Keith Olbermann)

SECURE UNDISCLOSED LOCATION— There has been a John Kerry sighting.

“Regardless of the outcome of this election, once all the votes are counted— and they will be counted— we will continue to challenge this administration,” the 2004 Democratic candidate said in a prepared statement released today. “I will fight for a national standard for federal elections that has both transparency and accountability in our voting system. It is unacceptable in the United States that people still don’t have full confidence in the integrity of the voting process.”

Since his concession, Kerry’s silence on the questions of voting irregularities in Florida, Ohio, and elsewhere, has perplexed those pursuing those questions, helped render largely passive the media who should’ve been doing so, and provided virtual proof to others that there weren’t any questions at all. His supporters have been mystified at news this week that millions of dollars from his war chest went unspent.  His lawyers have been characterized as flying below the radar as the Libertarian and Green Parties have pushed their recount in Ohio.

He has seemed to his supporters and many neutrals, in short, as being AWOL.

The statement doesn’t exactly dispel that aroma. It came by way of an e-mail to supporters— but not to the media— and a video on his otherwise update-free campaign website, which maintains the frozen-in-time November 2 front page that makes it look like the political equivalent of Miss Haversham’s cobweb-strewn house in Dickens’ “Great Expectations.”

The primary topic of the mass e-mail isn’t even this election or future ones. It’s about a petition drive for universal child health care legislation Kerry intends to introduce on the first day of the new Congress. Whether the voting stuff was added as a sop to supporters loudly wondering where he— and the unspent $15,000,000— has been, is conjecture.

But the video is just plain weird. The phrasing of the start of the relevant passage—“Regardless of the outcome of this election”— is open to the same kind of parsing and confusion usually reserved for the latest release from Osama Bin Laden. Those seven words are extra-temporal; they are tense-free. In them he could be describing an election long-since decided, or one whose outcome is still in doubt.

And the timing and delivery of the message are equally confusing. No notification to the media? When much of the mechanism of political coverage is kick-started by statements like this one? And its issuance on a Friday afternoon— the moment of minimum news attention so famously titled “Take Out The Trash Day” on the NBC series “The West Wing”?— is perplexing, if not suspicious.

It has the vague feel of deliberate ambiguity, as if Kerry is saying to those who are plagued by doubts about the vote just seventeen days ago, that he agrees with them, but they shouldn’t tell anybody. It’s exactly what these confusing times do not need: more confusion.

Thoughts? E-mail

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• November 19, 2004 | 9:40 a.m. ET

All I know is what I don’t read in the papers (Keith Olbermann)

SECURE UNDISCLOSED LOCATION— I’m beginning to think like Jim Bunning now.

So far in this post-election trip through Alice’s looking glass we’ve had:

—a University of Pennsylvania professor defending the accuracy of exit polling in order damn the accuracy of vote counting;

—a joint CalTech/MIT study defending the accuracy of exit polling in order to confirm the accuracy of vote counting;

—a series of lesser academic works assailing the validity of the Penn and CalTech/MIT assessments;

—and now, a UC Berkeley Research Team report that concludes President Bush may have received up to 260,000 more votes in fifteen Florida counties than he should have, all courtesy the one-armed bandits better known as touch-screen voting systems.

And, save, for one “New York Times” reference to the CalTech/MIT study “disproving” the idea that the exit poll results were so wacky that they required thoroughly botched election nights in several states, the closest any of these research efforts have gotten to the mainstream media have been “Wired News” and “Countdown.”

I still hesitate to endorse the ‘media lock-down’ theory extolled so widely on the net. I’ve expended a lot of space on the facts of political media passivity and exhaustion, and now I’ll add one factor to explain the collective shrugged shoulder: reading this stuff is hard. It’s hard work.

There are, as we know, lies, damn lies, and statistics. But there is one level of hell lower still— scholarly statistical studies. I have made four passes at “The Effect of Electronic Voting Machines on Change in Support for Bush in the 2004 Florida Elections,” and the thing has still got me pinned to the floor.

Most of the paper is so academically dense that it seems to have been written not just in another language, but in some form of code. There is one table captioned “OLS Regression with Robust Standard Errors.” Another is titled “OLS regressions with frequency weights for county size.” Only the summary produced by Professor Michael Hout and the Berkeley Quantitative Methods Research Time is intelligible.

Of course, I’m reminded suddenly of the old cartoon, with the guy saying “I don’t understand women,” and the second guy saying, “So? Do you understand electricity?”

In his news conference yesterday at Berkeley (who attended? Who phoned in to the conference call? Why didn’t they try?) Professor Hout analogized the report to a “beeping smoke alarm.” It doesn’t say how bad the fire it is, it doesn’t accuse anybody of arson, it just says somebody ought to have an extinguisher handy.

Without attempting to crack the methodology, it’s clear the researchers claim they’ve compensated for all the bugaboos that hampered the usefulness of previous studies of the county voting results in Florida. They’ve weighted the thing to allow for an individual county’s voting record in both the 2000 and 1996 elections (throwing out the ‘Dixiecrat’ effect), to wash out issues like the varying Hispanic populations, median income, voter turnout change, and the different numbers of people voting in each county.

And they say that when you calculate all that, you are forced to conclude that compared to the Florida counties that used paper ballots, the ones that used electronic voting machines were much more likely to show “excessive votes” for Mr. Bush, and that the statistical odds of this happening organically are less than one in 1,000.

They also say that these “excessives” occurred most prominently in counties where Senator Kerry beat the President most handily. In the Democratic bastion of Broward, where Kerry won by roughly 105,000, they suggest the touch-screens “gave” the President 72,000 more votes than statistical consistency should have allowed. In Miami-Dade (Kerry by 55,000) they saw 19,300 more votes for Bush than expected. In Palm Beach (Kerry by 115,000) they claim Bush got 50,000 more votes than possible.

Hout and his research team consistently insisted they were not alleging that voting was rigged, nor even that what they’ve found actually affected the direction of Florida’s 27 Electoral Votes. They point out that in a worst-case scenario, they see 260,000 “excessives” – and Bush took the state by 350,000 votes. But they insist that based on Florida’s voting patterns in 1996 and 2000, the margin cannot be explained by successful get-out-the-vote campaigns, or income variables, or anything but something rotten in the touch screens.

It’s deep-woods mathematics, and it cries out for people who speak the language and can refute or confirm its value. Kim Zetter, who did an excellent work-up for “Wired News,” got the responses you’d expect from both sides. She quotes Susan Van Houten of Palm Beach’s Coalition for Election Reform as saying “I’ve believed the same thing for a while, that the numbers are screwy, and it looks like they proved it.” She quotes Jill Friedman-Wilson of the touch-screen manufacturer Election Systems & Software (their machines were in use in Broward and Miami-Dade) as responding “If you consider real-world experience, we know that ES&S’ touch-screen voting system has been proven in thousands of elections throughout the country.”

What’s possibly of more interest to us poor laymen is what isn’t in the Berkeley report.

As I mentioned previously, they don’t claim to know how this happened. But more importantly, they say that they ran a similar examination on the voting patterns in Ohio, comparing its paper ballot and electronic results, and found absolutely nothing to suggest either candidate got any “bump” that couldn’t otherwise be explained by past voting patterns, income, turnout, or any other commonplace factor.

In other words: No e-voting machines spontaneously combusting in Ohio.

“For the sake of all future elections involving electronic voting,” Professor Hout concluded, “someone must investigate and explain the statistical anomalies in Florida. We’re calling on voting officials in Florida to take action.”

Anybody want to belly up to this bar?

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KOlbermann@msnbc.com

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Washington Post Editorial Board Slams Gonzales’ Record

Mr. Gonzales’s Record

Washington Post Editorial Board
Monday, November 22, 2004; Page A18

Investigations have determined that some U.S. interrogators who tortured Iraqi detainees at the Abu Ghraib prison reasonably believed that their actions had been authorized by a memorandum from the headquarters of Lt. Gen. Ricardo S. Sanchez, who approved such techniques as hooding, imposing “stress positions” and using dogs to inspire fear. According to one official report, although those methods clearly violate the Geneva Conventions, they were sanctioned by Gen. Sanchez’s legal staff “using reasoning from the president’s memorandum of February 7, 2002,” which determined that the conventions should be set aside for people deemed “unlawful combatants.”

The architect of that presidential memorandum was Alberto R. Gonzales, the White House counsel who now has been nominated by President Bush to serve as attorney general. Like several other senior administration officials, Mr. Gonzales has never accepted responsibility, or been held accountable, for his role in setting administration policies that led to extensive violations of international law — and U.S. standards of justice — in Iraq, Afghanistan, and Guantanamo Bay and in other still-secret detention facilities. Mr. Gonzales should not become attorney general without being asked by the Senate to answer for that record.

The starting point was Mr. Gonzales’s recommendation to Mr. Bush that he declare the Geneva Conventions — whose rules on the questioning of prisoners he derided as “obsolete” — inapplicable to detainees from Afghanistan. That decision caused enormous damage to U.S. standing even with close allies, yet from a practical point of view was entirely unnecessary. Mr. Gonzales ignored the advice of the administration’s most seasoned national security officials, including Secretary of State Colin L. Powell and the chairman of the Joint Chiefs of Staff, who told him it was possible to indefinitely detain and vigorously interrogate al Qaeda members without violating Geneva, and that he risked undermining a U.S. military culture of treating prisoners humanely. That prophecy came true when Gen. Sanchez used Mr. Gonzales’s logic to authorize the abuse of prisoners at Abu Ghraib. The position Mr. Gonzales endorsed, that the president could declare that all those captured in Afghanistan were not entitled to Geneva protections, has since been ruled illegal by one federal judge and has led to numerous other judicial complications.

Around the same time Mr. Gonzales convened a working group and pressed it to develop a system of “military commissions” for the detainees that would bypass both federal courts and the military’s own justice system. Once again he ignored the military’s own legal professionals, who believed the court-martial system was adequate. Once again trust in the United States was seriously eroded, without any useful result. After three years, not a single trial has been completed; instead, the system has been invalidated by one federal judge while the Supreme Court has ruled that all the foreign detainees can challenge their detentions in federal court. The Supreme Court also ruled that the government could not hold a U.S. citizen without court review or the right to counsel — again invalidating the stance that Mr. Gonzales adopted in the case of terrorism suspects Yaser Esam Hamdi and Jose Padilla.

Within months of Mr. Bush’s adoption of the Geneva decision, the CIA was using harsh questioning methods on a senior al Qaeda leader, Abu Zubaida, and asking the White House for legal justification. Mr. Gonzales commissioned a memo from the Justice Department in the summer of 2002 that asserted the president’s right to order the torture of detainees and redefined torture itself so that pain short of organ failure, death or permanent psychological damage did not qualify. According to a report in Newsweek magazine, the memo was written after a meeting convened by Mr. Gonzales at which specific torture practices were discussed and approved, including “water-boarding,” a technique designed to cause a sensation of drowning.

After the scandal over abuse at Abu Ghraib erupted, Mr. Gonzales tried to distance himself from the torture memo, though what is known indicates that he played a central role in its formulation. Like Mr. Bush and other senior officials, he has ignored the abundant evidence that the decision on the Geneva Conventions led directly to the abuse of detainees in Afghanistan and Iraq. His damaging and erroneous legal positions have been altered only in response to court rulings and then only grudgingly. Senators should ask Mr. Gonzales to explain his definition of torture and to say whether he believes captors in other nations could legally inflict pain short of organ failure on detained Americans. They should also ask why he chose to exclude or disregard the views of the uniformed military legal corps in his consideration of military commissions and the application of the Geneva Conventions. Above all, Mr. Gonzales should answer this question: Why is a lawyer whose opinions have produced such disastrous results for his government — in their practical application, in their effect on U.S. international standing and in their repeated reversal by U.S. courts — qualified to serve as attorney general?

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Misfire: Senator Santorum Lives in Virginia, but Represents Pennsylvania


Editorial: Santorum, R-Va. / Is the senator an ‘inhabitant’ of Pennsylvania?

The Penn Hills School District asked Sen. Rick Santorum a $38,000 question. That is whether his children are residents of the municipality to the point that their educations should be paid for by Penn Hills taxpayers.

On Wednesday he gave his answer and it was no.

The senator shouldn’t have felt put upon. It’s the same question that other districts routinely ask of families who impose themselves on a public school system where they do not live — sometimes because of athletics, sometimes because of better education.

Five Santorum children have been home-schooled at their house in Leesburg, Va., through the Pennsylvania Cyber Charter School, an education paid for by the Penn Hills district to the tune of $38,000 a year, until it became apparent recently that they don’t live in Penn Hills.

The senator’s office issued a statement two days ago saying he and his wife, Karen, are withdrawing their children from the cyber school. But that doesn’t mean they’ll be attending any of the brick-and-mortar schools of the Penn Hills district either. The commute from the Santorum home in Leesburg, Va., would be onerous.

All of which begs a much bigger question: Is Rick Santorum R-Pa. or R-Va.? No one should represent Pennsylvania in the U.S. Senate because he once lived here or because he visits all 67 counties every year. A traveling salesman can do that.

Article I of the U.S. Constitution says, “No person shall be a Senator … who shall not, when elected, be an Inhabitant of that State for which he shall be chosen.” Rick Santorum last won election in November 2000, when he owned the house at 111 Stephens Lane in Penn Hills plus a house in Virginia. Where he was an “inhabitant” at the time only he can say.

He faces re-election in 2006, but if that election were held today, the two-term Republican would be hard-pressed to convince voters that he inhabits a house on Stephens Lane. Sure, he and his wife pay taxes on the house. They also use the address for voter registration, but so do two other people. When a Post-Gazette reporter visited the house last Friday, a young man came to the door and declined to comment. He wasn’t Rick Santorum.

It gets worse. The two-bedroom house that the Santorum children called home for education purposes and that gives Mr. and Mrs. Santorum the right to vote in Pennsylvania lacks an occupancy permit. And the property tax break from the homestead exemption claimed by the Santorums on the Penn Hills house is allowed under law only if the dwelling is their “permanent home.”

It’s a strange case of political turnabout. In his initial House race against Rep. Doug Walgren in 1990, challenger Santorum attacked the incumbent from Mt. Lebanon for buying a house and raising his children in McLean, Va. Now Rick Santorum of Leesburg, Va., is saying that he is and he isn’t a resident of Pennsylvania.

Well, which is it?

Although this editorial board has differed with the senator on most of his votes in Washington, we would be the first to point out that he has been an advocate for the interests of Pittsburgh and Western Pennsylvania.

But this has nothing to do with one’s record. Pennsylvanians fundamentally deserve a senator who lives in Pennsylvania — unless the United States wants to outsource even its Senate seats.

By rights, the Santorums should pay back to Penn Hills the cost of the education provided by local taxpayers for their out-of-state children. What’s more, the senator has to prove to the people of Pennsylvania that he is one of them, not just a visitor from the state of Virginia.

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Federal Money for Veterans Healthcare Falls $1.2 Billion Short

Groups Disappointed by Veteran Health Aid

WASHINGTON  (AP) – Veterans’ health care got a lot of attention in the just-concluded election campaign, but the Republican-led Congress is not devoting as much money to it as veterans groups and even some GOP lawmakers wanted.

The expenditure for veterans’ health care will grow in 2005 to a record $30.3 billion, $1.9 billion more than this year, under the $388 billion spending bill Congress passed Saturday. Yet the total is $1.2 billion less than what the House Veterans Affairs Committee said last February was needed to maintain current benefits and services.

“The demand on the system has never been higher. The cost of health care has never been higher. This is not going to be adequate,” said Richard Fuller, national legislative director of the Paralyzed Veterans of America.

David Autry, spokesman for Disabled American Veterans, said, “With the country at war, politicians make a big show about how much the country owes veterans. … The commitment doesn’t match reality.”

Democratic presidential candidate John Kerry, a decorated Vietnam veteran, led a sustained attack on the Bush administration’s treatment of veterans, saying the health care system for them is underfunded.

President Bush responded that his budget for veterans’ health care for the 2005 government spending year was 40 percent higher than when he took office. Congress added $1.2 billion to his $29.7 billion proposal.

In the end, though, health care for veterans did not rise to the level of terrorism, the economy, moral values and Iraq. Those issues topped veterans’ list of concerns, according to exit polls conducted for The Associated Press and the networks.

Veterans favored Bush over Kerry by 57 percent to 41 percent. Recent major election-day surveys before 2004 did not gather information from voters based on service status. The conventional wisdom among Democratic pollsters was that veterans favored Republicans.

Veterans groups said they are even more worried about the 2006 budget proposal, when Bush won’t have an election looming before him.

“There could be even more bad news for veterans. We’ve heard agencies were told to prepare for cuts. The country is deeper in debt and the war is continuing,” Autry said.

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Veterans Affairs Department: http://www.va.gov

Disabled American Veterans: http://www.dav.org

Paralyzed Veterans of America: http://www.pva.org

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